I honestly have no idea what I'm going to write about right now. I mean, I do know but it's more of a "how to explain it" sort of feeling. I guess I'll just start from the beginning. As you may or may not know, I formed a guild, The Rebel Alliance, on Proudmoore. I've had this guild since the day I transferred characters over. It's this habit I've had for years. Whenever I switch realms, I always create a guild so I can house my alts and have extra storage space for junk and such. Well, when the raid team from my previous guild sort of fell apart, we all came over to The Rebel Alliance.
I didn't ask anyone to come. I just tossed my characters back into my guild and told everyone I would still raid and play with them, just not in the previous guild. Once they realized TRA was mine, they asked if they could join so we can all play and raid together and of course I said yes. Tuesday was our first raid together and we had a lot of fun. I mean, A LOT of fun. We had our problems, yes of course, but there was no shortage of a good time to be had. Thursday was supposed to be the continuation of that raid. It went horribly. Someone I considered a friend came to raid with us that night and she ruined everything with her negative attitude.
Towards the end of the raid there was so much passive aggressiveness coming from her that the people who weren't in our guild even asked what her problem was. It was upsetting to have so many people come to me to tell me they had a problem with her attitude and the way she was dragging everyone down. It was a bummer to hear. I like this person but gaming wise, I cannot play with this person and when I tried to tell her that she would be better suited raiding in an actual raid guild and not a guild that is playing for fun, she flew off the hinges and started talking over everyone about how she wasn't wanted. Which wasn't at all what we were saying.
Which is where it all went to shit. Someone else from the guild started yelling at her to get the fuck out because she wasn't listening and she was bringing down the moral of the raid. What really irks me is that throughout this whole thing, I was cool as a cucumber. I was trying to defuse the situation and calm everyone down. Tried to keep everyone in a good mood but in the end, I had to call the raid an hour early because of the whole thing. Everyone suddenly got into this fuck this attitude and it just ruined everything!
The whole situation sucks. I lost a friend over something I, personally, didn't even do and to make matters worse, she didn't even want to listen to what I actually had to say. She just kept focusing on what was said not WHO said it. I'm not going to apologize for something that I didn't personally do. I did apologize for her not having fun and being so damn uptight the whole night. I apologized for her mistaking this brand spanking new guild for some hardcore raiding guild.
But I refuse to apologize to someone who takes every little thing personally. Who refuses to listen, who is extremely passive aggressive when she speaks to people and who speaks down to people because she thinks she's better than everyone else. It sucks to have lost a person who could have been an amazing friends but I refuse to be made to feel like I'm less than.