Oi.

I swear, if I didn't have bad luck I'd have no luck at all. This entire week so far has been a huge pain in the ass. Everything possible that could go wrong, has and continues to do so. Currently am typing this at a million miles an hour because of how irritated and down right pissed off I am with how the universe is really trying me. I mean, I know we all can't have perfect days but holy shit, I was expecting at least one day this week that wasn't a total fail. So far this week I have had car trouble, pulled something in my neck. On top of that I have broken just about every freaking thing that I touch. This morning, I was getting ready to take the twins to the bus stop and what happens? My favourite giant mirror falls and shatters so any hope of me having good luck has just been swept under the rug.  Okay so I'm not that superstitious but still! 
 

I'm trying not to let this week get me down because its really trying but it's hard! I'm one of those people who suddenly gets uncomfortable and goes into panic mode when things don't go according to plan. Something I've been trying to curb for the longest but it's a lot harder than it seems. Especially since the last few years of my life have been unspeakably hard. I'm just trying to get through life without killing myself or anyone else and shit like this really just sets me back. That being said, I read a post on IG this morning from Gabrielle Union. She was talking about her nephew and how he had plans to play cornerback. It was his goal. Suddenly he was thrust into the position of quarterback. A position he hadn't played in years and ya know what? He didn't fold under the pressure. He did what was needed of him and although they lost the game (and she says it best) "...He won because he embraced the change and ran with it, literally"

I feel like that is what I need to do and for me, it's a lot harder than it seems. Embracing change isn't something I'm used to anymore. Somewhere along the lines I let life and the people around me dictate to me how I should react to my personal life goings. Going back to an ebb and flow lifestyle has been something I've been dying to do for awhile and realistically it's something I will probably have to wait even longer to achieve. But for now, can a bitch get at least ONE day where shit doesn't go wrong? Please!